Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Cha Cha Cha Changes

The love of my life moved away to California today to pursue her dreams, SIGH.

I am incredibly happy and excited for her. She is the most lovable, fun loving, adventurous, wise lady I've ever met; and I know she will build an amazing life for herself that she both be so proud of, and will fall in love with. But, like any (selfish) human, I'm totally jealous of this new life without me and bummed that she's so far away. Mostly, I'm thrilled, (but that badness often finds a way to creep in right?)

At this point in life I know well what it is to deeply love those who live far away from you, and how to make those relationships work. I've spent 4 years in college in Northern PA, 1 year in Baltimore, and 1 year in Atlanta leaving friends, family, and boyfriends scattered across the East Coast. I'm anticipating soon moving to Pittsburgh and hopefully not too long after that moving to Sub Saharan Africa for Peace Corps. (At least this is what they tell me!)

At this point in my life, its hard not to set down roots and build community in one geographic location. I crave stability like most people crave normal things like food, wealth, money, recognition..etc. But I know myself and with stability for me often comes stagnation. In order to thrive I need: to challenge myself and comfort zones, intellectual stimulation, to live intentionally, to live out my values, a strong community/ support net, and a life full and rich with love.

Accepting an acceptance during a government shurtdown

So September 20th I was offered a Peace Corps placement in Malawi for March 2014!

I, of course accepted. (After long bouts of jumping up and down and screaming.)

There is so much to say about what my future holds.. but I think this perfectly sums up the experience waiting for my damn acceptance:

 http://ethiopiacatalog.wordpress.com/2013/10/14/30-peace-corps-reactions/

I've never wanted anything so much--or let myself be so unsure of something that I was pursuing with my entire being.

So here I am during the government shut down wondering if and when it will be over soon, so I can start doing all the things I need to do--inoculations, vaccines, exams.. and wondering if I'll still leave in March.

So, in this time of inaction, there's this to dream about and in some cases dread.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/emily-spiegel/peace-corps-the-first-yea_b_4072408.html

Until next time

Thursday, September 19, 2013

For the least eventful first blog post ever..

So it turns out Tumblr isn't the right place to have a blog.. So, I've copied my address for some of my old posts in case anyone wanted to check them out.

http://beeskneesburke.tumblr.com/

Spoiler Alert: Its mostly me just having a "Dear Diary" situation where I'm trying to deal with my current break up and my blurry Peace Corps status. Maybe I'll keep posting on both, who knows?

Tomorrow I promise to write new and interesting things.

Thanks for bearing with me. The rest is sure to be thrilling!